He texted yesterday,but id deleted his numbers. So yeah,i replied...'sorry,but who might this be?' Took me about 3minutes to figure out that was his telcom number,so i texted him back sayin hi and explaining that id erased his numbers.
Ofcourse,to make the whole process easier,well...that and the sad fact that sometimes i'd drunk-dial him:-|
So after exchanging texts all evening(during the day my cell battery was empty coz id been downloading porn and electricity was being rationed),he decided that he'd give up talking to me because he doesnt want to be the one upsetting me all the time. His actual words were "i know u DETEST me and if u don't want to text me,then i guess i just have to leave u alone and deal with it.But i don't want to lose u."
I wont even lie to myself. Iv never been happier in my life than when we were together. Having that someone that u can tell everything,do the most stupid shit together...he was my best friend!!
He called me for an hour,and in that hour i realized i do not want him out of my life.He said something to me that i will never forget...and everyone deserves a second chance.
I know my girls wont be happy but no one knows what goes on between two people but them. I dont need to explain myself to anyone. Im just following my instincts. If they r my real friends,then they'll be happy for me.
!!!!!!!!!-Wait-!!!!!!!!!
We aren't back together. I still have all these demons i need to cast out. Im still mad. He was trying to move on but how he did it hurt,and i need time to deal wit that.
I know now that we are on the same page,that he was trying to fill my space with these women,that he's not entirely happy (just like me). What we share is special...
Im not ready to get back with him,but i know he is important to me,and im glad to have him back:-)
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