What now...?!

Wednesday....one of my girls(Miss Attitude) brings me this cute little doll thing that is a sausage dog with big ears and a t-shirt on it with a bunch of hearts and the words 'I wuf you this much'! Aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! Sweetest little thing ever!!
I miss my girls...I love them so much!

So on Thursday my Tanzanian man texts me. Really random coz he never just texts....i was always the one who did so but I stopped when I realized I'm putting too much effort into someone who really doesn't deserve it.
Hold up............did I mention that when we broke up he said I was a rebound!!!!!!??? I was so mad and I did not take too kindly to that statement. He made me so bitter!!! Me...a rebound!!? I was fucking glad to chuck him after that.
I reply the text and say goodnight coz I wasn't in the mood for conversation. the Next morning he texts again...he's asking how i have been...etc. I tell him that im shocked that he is text and i ask him why. He says he was sick(which he was) and that he had exams. 'So when people are sick and they have exams they do not text each other?'He takes long to reply and i tell him to leave it alone. Texts,texts and more texts....he misses me.He misses the sex and he can't stop thinking about it and me. (WHAT AN EGO BOOSTER FOR ME>>>I KNOW!!!!)
I tell him its just sex he wants...nothing has changed and I'm still hid fucking rebound. He says he cant say it was a rebound and he should have given it more time. He realizes now that we have a connection that he has never felt before....etc.
All the things I needed to hear he is saying them now?! Problem is I do not think I see him as a potential boyfriend anymore. I mostly want him to be a good good friend coz he was awesome at that but he wants something else i think. He wants to get back together....aaarrrrgggghhhh! I really don't need this shit right now. And I already lied that I haven't been with anyone else. For all I care he could have lied too. That's the problem....I don't really care. That shows im not that into him...right?!
I don't know...maybe if he could be my fuck buddy it wouldn't be so bad,but I know I do not wanna use him. And I do not need my feelings for him coming back. I miss the shag though....a lot and I won't be coy about it.

My girl, Diva, told me about this guy who is into me. He is her ex's boy. Apparently he is rich as a motherfucker!!! Im so flattered(blush blush). And I have his number...Diva got it for me.(I love that girl!!!) She gave him my number too but the Lord know I'm not going to holler 1st. Im not that desperate:) I just think ti'l be interesting....lets see what a man with money does different,lol. If it happens that is....

But this one is more like my life....all the same,awesome lyrics

Rihanna-Cold Case love

On my roof
Dark and I’m burning a rose
I don’t need proof
I’m torn apart & you know
What you did to me was a crime
Cold Case Love
And I let you reach me one more time
But that’s enough

Hook:
Your love was breaking the law
But I needed a witness
So pick me up when it’s over
It don’t make any difference
Will it ever be solved
Or am I taking the fall
Truth was there all along
Tell me how did we miss it

Chorus:
We opened up a cold case love
And it got the best of us
And now prints, pictures & white outlines
Are all that’s left at the scene of a crime
Of a cold case love

2nd Verse:
Should’ve investigated
But love blinded eyes
Couldn’t see (no)
And then I tried to cage it
But your love ain’t the kind you can keep
Release me now cause I did my time
Of this cold case love
My heart’s no longer cold & confined
I’ve had enough

Hook:
Your love was breaking the law
But I needed a witness
So pick me up when it’s over
It don’t make any difference
Will it ever be solved
Or am I taking the fall
Truth was there all along
Tell me how did we miss it

Chorus:
We opened up a cold case love
And it got the best of us
And now prints, pictures & white outlines
Are all that’s left at the scene of a crime
Of a cold case love

Bridge:
We lost our way
Took this too far
Now I’ll never find the pieces of my heart
We’ve lost enough
Looking for a truth
That was here all along

Chorus: (2x)
Cold case love
And it got the best of us
and now prints, pictures & white outlines
Are all that’s left at the scene of a crime
Of a cold case love

We opened up a cold case love
And it got the best of us
and now prints, pictures & white outlines
Are all that’s left at the scene of a crime
Of a cold case love

I just love the lyrics to this song....I FUCKIN LOVE THIS GIRL(RIHANNA)

Yeahh Ohhh

Gunfire left a hole in the tank, losing gasoline
Fire is on my trail and he's after me
Hope it don't get here before I get where I'm going I gotta get where I'm going
Take off my mask to breathe

You could've been a part of a masterpiece Fluid in the breaks was the last to leak That's the thing

Where im going i don't need my breaks,
Can't wait to see your face,
When your front windows break,
and i come crashing through

The lovers need to clear the road
Oh oh
Because this thing is ready to blow
Oh oh

I just wanna set you on fire
So I won't have to burn alone
Then you
Then you'll know where I'm coming from
Fire bomb...
Fire bomb

Seems cold but baby no it doesnt have to be,
Microwaving a metal tragedy
Watching it burning, its beautiful and its blue
and its pitiful and its blue, its the other half of me
I didn't do it you lit the match for me,
Now we're flying from the blast baby,
Thats the thing.

Where we're going we don't need no breaks,
Can't wait to see your face,
when your front windows break,
and i come crashing through.

The lovers need to clear the road
Oh oh,
Because this thing is ready to blow
Oh oh,

I just wanna set you on fire
So I won't have to burn alone
Then you
Then you'll know where I'm coming from
Fire bomb...
Fire bomb

Baby we were killin' em,
They couldnt handle the millionth degree
We were criminals,
As we were burning, the world called the police

Fire department, ambulance
You can call me crazy 'cause I believe
The only move for me and you
Is to go out blazing

The lovers need to clear the road
Oh, oh, oh
Cause this thing is ready to blow
Oh, oh, oh

I just wanna set you on fire
So I won't have to burn alone
Then you
Then you'll know where I'm coming from
Fire bomb
Oh oh
Fire bomb



Rihanna-firebomb!!!

2010

This year started out with me in a relationship....it ended a month later. I wasn't destroyed this time. I suppose i wasn't as into him as I thought. He was too noisy for my liking anyway...We both just thought that we really wanted to be together but then realized we rushed the whole thing. Maybe we were both just desperate for the attention,we were actually. I do miss him,mostly coz the sex was good. Too good. When you meet someone who is as freaky and kinky as you,my gahd!!! Gave him my ass on the 1st day...that's how kinky:-) I'd do him again if I got the chance...but I want a man now,not a boy.
He is/was Tanzanian, at least I can say iv had dick that has crossed the border...lol.
So we broke up right before St. Valentine's Day. You gotta hate that holiday. I just don't understand what the big deal about it is....and all I could think about is 'Where the hell an I going to get sex from?!'My folks left for some Valentine's get-away bullshit and we decided to have a party. Well, more like a gathering coz we didn't want it too big.
My sister invites some of her friends over. In not really a friends kinda being...i can say I have a couple but non of them showed coz they all had other shit to do. Anyway,among the dudes that showed up...there's this one guy who i totally like. He's just so articulate,eloquent, smart, well groomed. He'd be perfect if he had a big frame and was tall. The guy carries chocolate and sexy ass mints....so bloody sophisticated!!! o.k,let me contain my excitement.
So we start drinking,smoking weed in the process. Every time, him and his friend are ganging up on me,telling me how pretty i am(blush blush). He mentioned that the previous night he had had a foursome,three girls and him. I was so jealous!!! That shit is definitely on my bucket list;). I liked him even more! Drinking,drinking,drinking....smoking smoking smoking...then people leave to go to the club. It was just him and me, and my sister and the other guy, and a neighbor who was blacked out on the sofa.
Intense conversation+alcohol+drugs= mad making out!!!
MY GAHDD!!! I thought i had met good kissers but WOW! That was crazy!
We made out everywhere...in the bathroom,on the stairs,in the kitchen. We finished in my room;-). The sex was really good,tho it would have been better if were less intoxicated.
The part that kinda shocked me is he opted to sleep down stairs...on the couch instead of my queen-size comfortable bed?!!! Very weird...and when i meet him next i shall have to find out. it didn't really bother me though....i mean,I got laid:)and I knew for sure that i didn't suck.That was a very interesting Valentine's Day for me;-)I'd do him again too...in a heart beat.
Clearly I'm all healed up from the hurt that Smooches(the ex ex)put me through.There's still major scarring but I AM LOVING THE NEW ME!!!!! Live. Love. Explore....or in my case should it be Love. Explore. Live?!!!! Whatever the order I SO LOVE ME RIGHT NOW!!!!

The itsy bitsy spider

Well yea,thats me. And down came the rain and washed me out. Not sure what im experiencing right now but honestly,its not that bad. Bet ya'll are wondering what the fuck im talkn about but il recap soon. Everything. L8r bloggers