Retro....pt 2,last kiss

Im home. Happy i didnt get rained on,happier that its raining...finally.

I was so drunk yesterday!! Hw drunk? Well,i woke up, lights on,door open and i was in bed naked. That drunk.Relax,i was alone. I fucking fell,twice! I know,quite embarrasing ...right?But i had crazy fun.Thanx girls,ur so awesome!!

And now to continue with the story.....i was with my girl right,were chilling,smokin up,crackin:-)Im thinkin about him. I really didnt want2 talk2 Smooch(the ex) when i was high,but fuck it. Shit has2 start changing btwn us. He's my kryptonite but Clark Kent pulls through,every time. I just have to toughen up!
So we finish the joint n i walk out. Im heading to his room,my heart is POUNDING. I knock n pray that i dont find him wit any of his random girlfriends...there's just no need for an awkward moment. Im there. I pause,i think about what im goin2 say 1 more time. Just when im abt2 knock,the door opens. His boy is leaving,i peep. He's alone. Good.
I dont close the door,just in case i change my mind.I say hi.He reciprocates. The hard part follows. I tell him i cant wait any longer.I dont mention that i truly just want2 be alone."If thats how u feel,then i cant do anything about it". Really,he thinks he can beat me at my own game? Im almost sure we r on the same page...he is happier where he is too.
It all ends wit a kiss. So deep. Id missed that. We stare,kiss on the forehead. I depart. Im sad. Im surprised im that sad. I wont cry. Im happy. Im not alone. I hide the pain. We light a joint.We have fun.
Fuck love.