What now...?!

Wednesday....one of my girls(Miss Attitude) brings me this cute little doll thing that is a sausage dog with big ears and a t-shirt on it with a bunch of hearts and the words 'I wuf you this much'! Aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! Sweetest little thing ever!!
I miss my girls...I love them so much!

So on Thursday my Tanzanian man texts me. Really random coz he never just texts....i was always the one who did so but I stopped when I realized I'm putting too much effort into someone who really doesn't deserve it.
Hold up............did I mention that when we broke up he said I was a rebound!!!!!!??? I was so mad and I did not take too kindly to that statement. He made me so bitter!!! Me...a rebound!!? I was fucking glad to chuck him after that.
I reply the text and say goodnight coz I wasn't in the mood for conversation. the Next morning he texts again...he's asking how i have been...etc. I tell him that im shocked that he is text and i ask him why. He says he was sick(which he was) and that he had exams. 'So when people are sick and they have exams they do not text each other?'He takes long to reply and i tell him to leave it alone. Texts,texts and more texts....he misses me.He misses the sex and he can't stop thinking about it and me. (WHAT AN EGO BOOSTER FOR ME>>>I KNOW!!!!)
I tell him its just sex he wants...nothing has changed and I'm still hid fucking rebound. He says he cant say it was a rebound and he should have given it more time. He realizes now that we have a connection that he has never felt before....etc.
All the things I needed to hear he is saying them now?! Problem is I do not think I see him as a potential boyfriend anymore. I mostly want him to be a good good friend coz he was awesome at that but he wants something else i think. He wants to get back together....aaarrrrgggghhhh! I really don't need this shit right now. And I already lied that I haven't been with anyone else. For all I care he could have lied too. That's the problem....I don't really care. That shows im not that into him...right?!
I don't know...maybe if he could be my fuck buddy it wouldn't be so bad,but I know I do not wanna use him. And I do not need my feelings for him coming back. I miss the shag though....a lot and I won't be coy about it.

My girl, Diva, told me about this guy who is into me. He is her ex's boy. Apparently he is rich as a motherfucker!!! Im so flattered(blush blush). And I have his number...Diva got it for me.(I love that girl!!!) She gave him my number too but the Lord know I'm not going to holler 1st. Im not that desperate:) I just think ti'l be interesting....lets see what a man with money does different,lol. If it happens that is....